February 2012
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THE BALL ON MY EYEBROW RING FELL OFF AND I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GET IT BACK ON BECAUSE OF MY MOTHER FUCKING NAILS SO NOW I HAVE TO WEAR THIS UGLY ASS HOOP WITH NO BALLS AT ALL AND I HAVE A FUCKING INTERVIEW AND I LOOK LIKE A SCRUB
why does this have to happen today? fuck my fucking life. fuck. im so pissed. god dammit.
ive never had a job. never been to an interview. i dont even know what im going to be asked or anything. im freaking out guys. ive never done this before :/
they’re gonna stay in the room one more night, he thinks. then they’re going to detox tomorrow. hopefully i can see him. i really fucking hope i can.
i hope this interview goes well. im nervous. and i’ll be even more nervous when she calls me and we set up a time. im freaked out. now would be a great time for a xanax or something.
dearauriein asked: then when it seems likely unless someone comes and offers you the gift of a sincere smile, a word ... but they are not just words ? I offer you words and smiles, hope you feel better, you can chat with me wanting to ask about anything, just do not feel so alone this is my little selfish desire.
can i just stop feeling?
im not gonna see jeremy for a while. probably wont even talk to him for a while. cant go over there tonight. they’re leaving tomorrow for wherever they end up. he’s on hold now for whatever. i dont know.
im really upset. probably more upset than i should be. but i just like him so much and im sad that im not gonna see him before he leaves. im just depressed right now. im crying and im...
Anonymous asked: what part of florida do you live in?? your recovery sory is very inspiring. keep it up <3 it's worth it!
im worried about jeremy. i hope he can come get me tonight. i really want to see him before they go somewhere. bob sounded really weird on the phone. i just want to see jeremy. idk what to do.
im going shopping with my mom to get an outfit for the interview. hopefully i can find something cute that fits right. everything is either too small or too big.
but i just cant really think about anything...
summerset-drive:
someone from master cuts just called me she wants me to come in for an interview she said she’d call me tomorrow after she looks at her schedual. i need to figure what to wear i have tops but no bottoms other than jeans so, i may have to go buy something.
but whatever. im excited. this is awesome.
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why does society tell us what is and isnt appropriate? why does age matter? why does race or gender matter? why cant people be free to love who they love? its not something you can control. if you like someone, it doesnt matter what they look like or how old they are or if they have a dick or a vagina. you like who you like and thats it. there’s not much you can do about it.
so, why is it...
i hate when my favorite blogs post things about weed or xanax bars because i wont unfollow them because the shit they post is too good and the majority of what they post is cool shit and not drugs but still. i really want to get fucked up and j;ahjgajpfjsrhglesrg whatever.
rant over.
i just had some weird fucking dreams. i dont even know. whatever.
anyway, aparently bob is going crazy with drinking. jeremy said he’s completely different. that even his voice is different. which i understand. thats what happened to my ex when he got fucked up. he was a completely different person. it was like matt left and some random, crazy person took his place. its scary.
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the only thing i dont like about being fucked from behind is that i cant scratch/claw at his back. i like that. i need something to hold on to. thats not the sheets. or a pillow.
just saying.
“If a person has ugly thoughts, it begins to show on the face. And when that...”
– Roald Dahl (via suckerforbass)
i got in a huge fight with my mom last night. one of the worst fights we ever had. but i dont want to talk about that again. i dont feel like thinking about it anymore.
anyway, jeremy and i were laying in bed and he was just talking to me about how he feels about me. he kept saying that he likes me. a lot. that hes attracted to me and he’s not sure why because of the age difference and he...
i called no one answered so i left a message i said im worried about them i hope i get a call back in the mean time idk what im supposed to do i need to do something but idk what.